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Utechma Lyrics


Utechma by Amy X Neuburg & Men


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Chinatown

I want to go live in Chinatown because 
the food's so good but you say: 
No no no no you're not Chinese 
and anyway 
aren't they a sort of private people
hard to get to know and I say: 
When did I ever know my neighbors
When did I ever say hello to one of 'em
When do I ever get outside 
I'm always inside with you

I want to go live in Chinatown because 
the rent's so cheap but you say:
Where where where where would we go for fun
and anyway 
nobody we know lives in that part of town 
We'd be so far and I say:
When do we ever see them anyway
What do we ever do for fun
How can I ever get out there 
I'm always in here with you

Don't get me wrong 
I'm not complaining
This is much easier than 
trying to actually do something

What about all the fame and fortune
What about all the lists of things to do
I say what do I want with fame and fortune when 
I can be in here with you
Wouldn't it be ten times easier 
just to pack it up and move away
Chinatown is only part of the picture
What I really mean to say is 
I want to go live in China 
and stay inside with you

Into that hole

Falling into your feather bed 
into the darkness into the fear again
Falling into your open eyes 
into the sunlight into the pool again
Falling into your frozen hands 
into a warm world onto the map again
Falling into your heavy heart
into a deep trance into that hole again

Climbing onto your angry lips 
into a sweet death into a dream again
Climbing onto your furniture
into a loud song into a scream again
Climbing up to your candlelight 
into a hot breath into the flame again
Climbing into your spinning head 
into a deep trance into that hole again

Falling into your hemisphere 
into a green life into the blue again
Falling into your cigarettes 
into a strong drink into a drug again
Falling into your photograph 
with an insane smile out of the door again
Falling into your crazy words 
into a deep trance into that hole again
 
Climbing out of your aftertaste 
onto a wet tongue into the flood again
Climbing onto your pedestal 
into the limelight being a fool again
Climbing out of your masterpiece 
onto a toothbrush into the drain again
Climbing out of a wavy line 
out of a deep trance into that hole again

Delirium

If I could only breathe I would tell you a few stories
about different times I breathed and different things came in
If I could only breathe I would breathe you a few fires
and let you sift through all the layers as I watch you peel your skin
If I could only breathe I would hum you a few bars of gold
and wrap them 'round your finger while you wonder what's my plan
If I could only breathe I would sigh just like a comic strip 
and fill you in with blue dots as you let go of my hand

Hohh what a room is this
where a silent scream is the distant call of the phone machine
Hohh what a dream is this
where you made some sound and the headlights died and my head fell in 

I dreamed that I had lost my mouth and couldn't tell you true things
and I dreamed that I had Brillo in my mouth that wasn't there
I dreamed the sink had overflowed and everyone was helpless
and I dreamed that all the dishes were my muscles and my hair
If I could only breathe I would surely dream of breathing
in my private underwater and I'd let you get some rest
If I could only breathe then the world would breathe together 
and at precisely the right moment we'd all awaken and get dressed

Hohh what a room is this...

Get that camera out of here

Get that camera out of here out of my way
Haven't washed my hair since Monday morning
And all my friends that hang out in there cannot be photographed
They cannot be photographed 
we won't let you photograph

Got a hot date in a big truck 
and I wonder if we're really gonna make this move
Got a negative of a big mistake
and we gotta keep smart just to keep from going stupid

Get that camera out of here out of my house
Haven't washed the sheets since 1980
And all the stains and sticky things you want to photograph
You can never photograph 
I won't let you photograph

Got a hot date in a big truck...

Get that camera out of here
Why should I let you in here
There is nothing good in here

Get that camera out of here out of my mouth
Haven't brushed my teeth for 15 minutes
And all the stains and stringy things you want to photograph
You can always photograph 
with your mind you photograph

Got a hot flash in a dark room
and I wonder if we're ever gonna get exposed
Got a positive of a metaphor
and we gotta keep smart just to keep from going stupid

If you really want this shot
Black and white are all I've got
Black and white and sometimes grey

Fish

I float in my car downstream 
and the oar knocks a stop sign down
That must be a police car 'cuz there's that sound
so I try to pull over but there's no ground 
to hold onto

The courthouse is a swimming pool 
and they ship me off to traffic school
where I go down laughing I die laughing
Tiny little bubbles rise but 
nobody recognizes them as mine
Here I am drowned in a red reflection

I went down laughing I died laughing
The joker at the lectern there 
he knew how to tell a good one he said:
Here's a short list of things you're allowed to do 
but look look there's plenty of room to improvise
So now I perform in an undersea church 
and every millisecond is perfectly planned

I had a good time mixing media 
and then they took my sight away
I had a good time driving in my own inventions 
and then they took my bucket seats away
I had a good time floating in imagination
and then they took my flood away
They put up a stop sign in the undersea church 
and made me bow to it  
and drank up my environment with a straw

I went down laughing I died laughing
And now I lie around like a dead fish all day
and watch television and everything's 
okay

Tango

Drink me peaches and cream here on the outside
Things are sweet as they seem here on the outside
If I bathe every day I don't have to hide much
If you find me this way you'll feel a warm touch
Every surface is clean if you take a dust rag
Every surface will bleed if you make a sharp stab
Finding me was your sin I only stood by
Ripping open the skin here is my inside

Drink me poison and wire here on the outside
These are things we admire here on the outside
Tough enough for this world is that a turn-on
Tough enough to be cruel I sure can hurt one
Every surface is clean if you take a dust rag
Every surface will bleed if you make a sharp stab
If you're looking for hell I'll be your mad girl
But ripping open the shell you'll find a real pearl

Ripping open ripping open...

Homeless out of the park surely a good sign
White faces in the dark surely a good sign
Getting rid of your trash you don't have to think hard
Waking after the crash so what if you think hard
Every surface is clean if you take a dust rag
Every surface will bleed if you make a sharp stab
If you're looking for dirt you don't have to go far
Ripping open the earth you'll leave a big scar

Ripping open ripping open...

Money in the sky

What would you do if it were up to you
Run out and buy ten thousand army troops
or send a man up high and watch him die 
like fireworks
Money in the sky

What would you do if you could run the show
Help out a child save someone's life feed the earth
or take a photograph of another planet
maybe look for life there
Money in the sky

I want fifty percent to go to defense
fifty percent to go to offense
fifty percent to build me a fence
fifty percent to build me a rocket ship
Now that leaves me deeply in debt 
and it's not over yet
I would also like to get 
one good night's sleep

What would you like to spend your money on...

We could always use another satellite...

What's between that star and the next star
What's between your right and your left ear
What's between your mouth and the Safeway
What's between your gun and a new world order

Humility

If I bare my soul to you 
would you walk away and puke
This unaccompanied chagrin 
will surely hit you in the skin
Superficial substanceless 
embarrassing yet they say this
is what some people like to hear
I've got my pain you've got your beer
But I have not the confidence to 
have the humility

Things like this make me feel sick
I wouldn't blame you if you pick 
some other bar some other band
where hearts don't pour out into hands
Things like this make me so ill 
and if you don't leave now I will
I've got a grudge against that thing 
where broken women sit and sing
For I have not the confidence to 
have the humility 

My empire

My only solace is my empire 
It cheers me up when I've been hurt
I use my chalet on the weekends 
to get away from all the dirt
And from my quiet hillside I look down on them
and laugh aloud as they use up the land
For I've got all of the world on my mountain top
and I've got all of their checks in my hand

My only solace is my empire
It fills me up when I feel thin
I've got a really pretty castle 
to keep my pretty objects in
No civil war will deprive me my happiness
No sorry uprisers standing in line
They're just in love with the things that they cannot buy
while I'm in bed with the things that are mine

Nine courses some altruism 
Cheating on the side
It's all in the name of a better world
It's all in the saving of one hide

My only solace is my empire
It grows me up when I feel small
I built a really ugly hi-rise 
with 32 apartments and a mall
And from my lonely top floor I get back at them
for making all of my view look so grey
For they're a little bit closer to hell down there
and I'm a little bit further away

Utechma

No pining no yearning for having today
I've already given you heaven today
For nearly 8 hours I've been scrubbing away
to clean all the crust off the stuff I give away
For nearly 8 hours I've been slaving away
I've already given you seven today
of burning and twisting and sweating today
to wrap up in boxes the stuff I give away
I've got a collection of miserable things
I've got Lincoln pennies 
and cheap popcorn rings
I'm saving up slowly for one sunny day
but I've already given half of it away

Here is my heart 
Here is my aorta and my favorite song
Take my time 
I've already given you an hour
I've already given you seven today
I've already given you heaven today yah


Here is my soul
Give me your admission tickets in return
Here's one fool 
with a suitcase full of dollar bills
It doesn't matter if it's money or lies
Whoever has the most things when he dies 
wins

You give some out you take some back
You talk about me behind my back
You take my car you take my cat
You take my advice and things like that

And then when you win you can count all the things 
in your bag
all the things hangin' around your neck
You breathe them in you spit them out
and then when I join you you can laugh all you like 
I'll just laugh at you back
You go to hell or up to heaven you rise
Whoever has the most things when he dies 
wins

Utechma car Utechma cat 
Utechma advice Utechma advice...

You give some out you take some back
You make sure to have a heart attack 
before you lose it all to me
I'm here with my shovel and my key
You lose your hearing and your head and your eyes
but you're the winner with the most when he dies

Hunger for heaven

for Mike G.
Blank expressions are not helpful 
in knowing what people are thinking
It's painful to try and guess what's on their minds 
what's in their senses 
Are they senseless are they mindless 
Why don't they cry 
Why don't they understand the part where 
everybody commits suicide

Hunger for heaven no never but 
hunger for waiting no never
All the religions in the world never gave you an answer
You used up your guesses and your three wishes

Hunger for heaven no never but 
hunger for slipping in deeper no
The mercy of the mystery is better in the long run 
than all the blurry faces dripping down down on you
Which face do you want floating in your last dream

Hunger for heaven no never but 
hunger for medals of valor no
All the heroes in the world never rolled you a model
Now if they had only told you how to fly
maybe you'd know more about the sky
a little more familiar when you die

Everybody loves a savior
Everybody wants to be your one hope 
You'll put them all straight
There's only one thing that can save you

All songs written by Amy X Neuburg, except "Money in the sky", written by Amy X Neuburg and Tim Root. All songs copyright 1995 by spoonerISm music. All rights reserved. These lyrics were uploaded with the permission of the publisher and the artist.


This page was last updated on March 3, 2004 by Kristi Wachter.